All i am is numb now

i have nothing left to write

i don't have real emotions

Cuz i can't ever get them right

the pain and heartache sucks

but thats only about half

the other halfs a cheerfull smile

thats always seems to come back

it shows up when they talk

and tell me how to deal

but all i want to do

Is SHOW them how i feel

Its so annoying there

when they talk to you so much

all you do is repeat yourself

the same replies and such

A recording of responses

is all you really are

they press the button

you spit it out it all begins to scar

But I hope its almost over

and normal soon returns

but whos to say wats normal

Thats the life lesson I've learned

Be nice ppl i haven't written in a while so i dunno how bad this was hahaha i am sure its horrible to read about though!!! o well LOVE YOU GUYS !!!

Brandon C. W._ awesome show.. i think having you just sorta talk about my mom and stuff was awesome, and that you showed you cared even though you didn't know me very well ! that shows amazing character ..... i just wanted to let you know that it was real nice to know that someone was actually caring and not just showing me PITY cuz alot of ppl have been doing that lately!!!!                  THANKS Brandon

I also wanna thank Paige, Missy, Josh, Cody, Craig,Chloe, Courtney, Josie(uve been so good to me), JESSE and LEA...

P.S. Haylie is awsome BFFAE .. i am not sure if jesse told you about my mom but if he didn't then ask him LOVE YA!!!

WOW I AM GOING TO BED AT 4 in the moring isn't that crazy!!!!